LOVE YOUR SELFIE

Hi humans today I'm here to talk about something very near and dear to my heart and that is, selfies. Selfies are probably one of my favorite things to exist. I see selfies as a positive and empowering thing, something to lift you up and bring people together. However, some see selfies as; narcissistic, self centered, and shallow. Back in my senior year of high school I became a self named "selfie queen" and really began to embrace them. During this time I was also in the middle of writing my senior Capstone and decided to throw in a few pages about how much I loved selfies. This led me to do some research on the anti-selfie side of society. I read an article on the “Feminist Current” that described the defense of selfies as, “confirmation that this era will forever known as the stupidest of all eras.” This honestly and obviously infuriated me. To says that selfies are just a cry for attention, and for the male gaze is ridiculous. It reinforces the idea that everything a woman does is for male attention(which totally fine but not the intention of all). The author writes, “It’s simply not possible that, if we put images of ourselves, or really, if we put anything at all online, that it’s ‘for ourselves’. If it were just ‘for ourselves’ we wouldn’t put it on the Internet.” When I read this I was appalled, to say that females in particular post pictures of themselves (on their own terms) for the attention of males is dumb. Especially since this is coming from a ‘feminist’, condemning others for doing something that makes them feel good and accusing that they’re brainwashed is ridiculous. I honestly don’t understand why some see selfies as “unfeminist”. I see selfies as something great, something empowering. I don’t see anything unfeminist about them, if anything I find them extremely feminist. There’s nothing wrong with taking a selfie for affirmation, or just taking one because you feel like it. Selfies are a way to feel good about yourself, a way to feel confident, even if it’s an “unattractive” or silly selfie. Feeling good about yourself does not make you shallow, the more selfies you take does not make you increasingly self centered. Ezra Koenig of Vampire Weekend talked about selfies in his interview with The Rolling Stone in November 2013. Here he talks about how he is “pro-selfie”, "I’m definitely pro-selfie. I think that anybody who’s anti-selfie is really just a hater. Because, truthfully, why shouldn’t people take pictures of themselves? When I’m on Instagram and I see that somebody took a picture of themselves, I’m like, ‘Thank you.’ I don’t need to see a picture of the sky, the trees, plants. There’s only one you. I could Google image search ‘the sky’ and I would probably see beautiful images to knock my socks off. But I can’t Google, you know, ‘What does my friend look like today?’ For you to be able to take a picture of yourself that you feel good enough about to share with the world – I think that’s a great thing." I agree with this quote 100%. Why shouldn’t you take pictures of yourself? What’s the problem with letting the world see what you look like at any given moment? He also brings up a really good point, that you can G­­­­oogle pictures of nature, but you can’t Google to see what your friends look like, and the fact that being able to take pictures of yourself is so easy and accessible is amazing. I myself take a lot of selfies, and it makes me feel really good. There’s something about taking any sort of selfie that makes me feel good about myself. Taking selfies is fun, the fact that I can scroll through my phones' camera roll and know what I looked like on January 5, 2015 is incredible to me. I absolutely adore when I'm with friends and we take selfies together, it creates memories. So I encourage everyone to take as many selfies as you damn well please. Relish in them, post them everywhere or nowhere. Love your selfie.

May Favorites

 Hello humans!!! I know, I know it's been months but schools almost out so I will definitely make up for the lack of posts this summer! Anyway, today I thought I would talk about my favorite things from May. I've seen beauty bloggers and YouTubers do this and it always looks so fun. SO disclaimer this will have basically nothing to do with beauty(as I don't really wear makeup) it will just be made up of my favorite things(foods, books, pieces of clothing, music, TV, etc) from last month! So without further ado my May favorites!
  1. So I was fortunate enough to use some money from my savings to buy myself a new computer after basically fighting with my old one. I was able to buy myself a MacBook Pro and I absolutely ADORE it! I previously had a Dell and PCs are just too high maintenance for me. My Mac was definitely on the higher side of the price spectrum but I think it was worth it. I still have to transfer most of my stuff from old my computer but I don't have the patience.
  2. Now this next fave of mine has been a long time coming, Taylor Swift. I have a long complicated history with this pop queen. I was OBSESSED with her when her self titled came out when I was in the 6th grade. But then I thought I was "too good" for pop music. When 1989 came out I was automatically hooked and listened to it for like 2 days straight. I recently was able to get her discography and I love it. My favorite albums have to be Red and 1989. Not to mention she's adorable and has a killer fashion sense. She is 100% lifestyle/fashion/hair/existence goals.
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  3. Recently I went from regular nerd to full on nerd after my friend Natalie got me into comic books. Comic books have quickly become one of favorite things. I am slowly but surely building my own little collection which makes me super happy. My favorite at the moment are; Princess Leia(mini series), Ms. Marvel, Hawkeye, and Black Widow. I recently bought A-Force and 2 Star Wars Rebel Heists.
  4. If you didn't already know I LOVE early 2000's teen dramas, whether it be One Tree Hill, Laguna Beach, or The Hills(my absolute favorite). Recently I found seasons 1 and 2 of The OC and let me tell you it is everything I had hoped and more. Seth Cohen is the man of my emo dreams and the flimsy story lines fill me with happiness. The soundtrack is incredible and almost as good as that of The Hills. 
  5. So I've recently gotten back into devouring books like I used to which makes me so happy and one of the books I finished last week was Tell Me Again How a Crush Should Feel by Sara Farizan. Recently I've been craving books about girls who like other girls because I've read far too many heteronormative books. And this one defiantly delivered, it also had some super rad twists that I was not expecting. The way it was written at certain parts annoyed me a little but I enjoyed the characters and it was a good, quick read. 
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  6. Last but in no least is Halsey. Pictures of her had been popping up all over my dash and then I saw her in a post of queer up and coming artists and decided to give her a listen. And I am obsessed. She only has 1 EP out right now(Room 93) and her first full length comes out in the fall I believe. Her music is like indie pop I guess but I really like it. My favorite song off the EP is "Is There Someone" I listened to it on repeat for like 2 hours the other day. Not to mention she's adorable and from what I can tell a stellar human.
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So those are my May favorites!!! I think I might start doing this sort of post monthly it was fun talking about things I enjoy. Again, sorry I was gone for so long school wraps up for the term on Tuesday so after that I should be more active. I plan on taking tons of pictures this summer and posting them here. Also once I finish my newest photo project I plan on posting it here! Thank you for reading and I hope everyone is enjoying the summer and feeling happy!!

* These photos were found on Google and I do not own them

Identity

Hello humans, identity is something that can be confusing and scary. There's a lot of different types of identity, sexual, romantic, and social(how you want to  be perceived by those around you). Personally, finding my indenties has been scary, especially when it comes to sexual and romantic identity. In a society where the "norm" is heterosexual and hetero-romantic being anything other than that can call for unwanted attention, and criticism. My own sexual and romantic identity is something I've thought about in great detail for a long time.
It started to become something that was constantly on my mind during the second half of 8th grade. I was 14 going on 15 and had just been accepted into San Domenico, a private all girls school. Middle schoolers are cruel, especially when you were going to attend a "lesbian school". Now, don't start thinking I was bullied because I wasn't. The other kids at my school were all going to other private high schools(Branson, Marin Academy, Marin Catholic, The Bay School), all of which were co-ed. My classmates had always said the all girls school was, "for lesbians" and that if I went there I would "turn into a lesbian". This whole mentality caused me to put a lot of pressure on myself. I liked boys, I had had crushes on them since before I could remember. But, what was going to happen once I started all girls school? Why did the idea of liking girls scare me so much? I loved girls, I had always been more comfortable around girls than I was boys. Was there something wrong with that? Was there something wrong with me? No, there wasn't but I couldn't shake the feeling that there was. My best friends up until recently had all been straight, straight with no wiggle room This and my inability to healthily talk about my feelings made it basically impossible for me to even being to talk about what was going on inside my head. This cycle of internalizing and fearing my own identity continued until a few months ago.
I reached out to one of my close friends because she was someone I felt I could really trust with the issue of sexuality, someone who understands what I was feeling. After some days of exchanging messages and a lot of deep thinking I came to my conclusion. I am bi-romantic, meaning I have romantic feelings for both girls and boys. Sexuality is something that I will tackle personally when I feel ready. But for now I know who I am. And I'm happy and proud.

Photography

Hello humans I recently decided to treat myself to some books from Amazon. I bought myself Humans of New York and Yes Please, Amy Poehlers book. I've been constantly stopping my homework to look through the book. I find it so incredibly inspiring. Photography is something I've always loved, but have never been very loud about. Up until recently I didn't consider myself a "photographer", I thought to be a photographer you had to know everything about all types of cameras. I thought that my C in Photo 1 junior year didn't mean anything, that even though I saved money for 3 years to buy a used Canon Rebel XS on ebay, I wasn't a real photographer. And I now realize that that is complete and utter bullshit. Photography is something that makes me happy, it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside, like the feeling you get when watching your favorite movie or tv show. And the fact that I was scared to be open and go out and do something that fills me with happiness is ridiculous. I think a part of it ties into self confidence because pulling out a large $500 camera in public does get people staring sometimes. And when I started taking pictures I wasn't confident in the slightest. I hated people looking at me and I was scared to go places by myself and take pictures. But since I've grown as a human being and learned and started to fully love myself, going out to take pictures isn't scary anymore. I love it. Yeah, sometimes I'll ask a friend to tag along with me for the companionship and so I have someone to talk to, but for the most part I like going places by myself, and just hanging out with my camera.
 When it comes to what I like to take pictures of, the list is long. I love taking pictures through windows looking out over something. I love when things are centered and the light is dim giving everything a nostalgic feel. I love taking pictures of myself. I don't always have the energy or motivation to go outside so I become the photographer and the subject. I love taking pictures of myself because I don't have to worry about it being awkward or the subject/model becoming uncomfortable. I am allowed complete and total control. I love taking pictures of skin, mine and other peoples. I love seeing the lines and how the pigment of someones face changes in different spots. I love being able to see tiny little blemishes and peach fuzz. Over this past summer(summer 2014) I started(and have yet to finish) a photo project where I take close up pictures of peoples faces. I started with myself one day when I was bored after school and the results were, in my opinion, incredible. I then set out to find friends who were willing the shed their makeup and let me basically stare at them through a viewfinder. Luckily, they let me and one of my favorite projects was born.
Well this post seemed to get away from a bit but I stand by the whole thing. I feel so incredibly inspired by the Humans of New York book and I can't wait to go take pictures of everything I see once again.
*Below I'm going to add some pictures from the summer project but all pictures I post can be found HERE*
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Winter Term 2015

Hello humans!!!! I started Winter Term(my second term of college!) last Monday and I just wanted to give  a lil update. I'm taking 2 classes at actual school and 1 online. I'm taking Business 101, Critical Thinking and Media, and Music 101. Business 101 is good, it's just a lot of lectures and notes but I do find it very interesting. Critical Thinking and Media is one of the most interesting classes I've ever taken. We basically talk about different aspects of media and question and criticize it. I'm definitely not the best critical thinker but it's fun. It's going to be hard but exciting. Music 101, I know for a fact is going to be the real struggle. I never really learned about the notes and scales and all that when I was younger, and boy is it hard. But I feel myself learning and gaining an actual understand of music which is super cool and makes me feel super excited for what's to come. I hope everyone is having a less than painful transition back into to school and I hope you all have a wonderful day/morning/evening/night!!!

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2015

Happy New Year!!!!!!!! I hope everyone had a wonderful and safe new year and got to ring it in with their favorite humans. I thought I would let you all in on my resolutions/goals for this year. But before I do that I want to reflect on 2014. 
2014 was a great year, I didn't spend a lot of the year being sad and I got to do cool things and go to some cool places. I graduated high school in June which was a huge accomplishment, went to New York City, met one of my best friends of 3 years Isabella, went to Germany and saw where my grandma was born and grew up, also went to Berlin and saw the Berlin Wall and got to go to so many museums, started college, ended my first term with straight A's, started to learn to drive, began to finally love myself, started to become informed on important subjects, and bettered friendships with the important people in my life. 2014 was great and I can't believe how much I learned and grew.
But now for for my 2015 goals;
- learn to drive and get my license(for real this time)
- learn more about makeup
- continue to educate myself about whats going on around the world
- take more pictures
- continue to stay confident and love myself endlessly
- don't let my anxieties and fears control me
 - continue to love myself apologetically
I hope you all have a wonderful day/morning/evening/night!!!

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Christmas 2014

Merry Christmas humans!!!! I hope everyone had a happy and safe Christmas and also a happy and safe Hanukkah, and that those who celebrate Kwanzaa have a rad day. Christmas was really good and I'm so so grateful for what my brothers and I got. My youngest brother got the HP tablet he wanted, my brothers and I all got an Xbox One to share, and I got round trip plane tickets to go to Austin, Texas for RTX in 2015!!!!! I honestly didn't expect any of it, our Christmases are normally small because my family doesn't have a ton of money. But this year was incredible and I'm so happy. My uncle and two cousins also came over today since all our family lives down in California. We watched Elf, A Christmas Story, and now we're finishing up She's The Man. Today was really nice and I'm glad I spent the whole time with my family.  I hope you all have a wonderful day/morning/evening/night!!!

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