Hello humans I recently decided to treat myself to some books from Amazon. I bought myself Humans of New York and Yes Please, Amy Poehlers book. I've been constantly stopping my homework to look through the book. I find it so incredibly inspiring. Photography is something I've always loved, but have never been very loud about. Up until recently I didn't consider myself a "photographer", I thought to be a photographer you had to know everything about all types of cameras. I thought that my C in Photo 1 junior year didn't mean anything, that even though I saved money for 3 years to buy a used Canon Rebel XS on ebay, I wasn't a real photographer. And I now realize that that is complete and utter bullshit. Photography is something that makes me happy, it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside, like the feeling you get when watching your favorite movie or tv show. And the fact that I was scared to be open and go out and do something that fills me with happiness is ridiculous. I think a part of it ties into self confidence because pulling out a large $500 camera in public does get people staring sometimes. And when I started taking pictures I wasn't confident in the slightest. I hated people looking at me and I was scared to go places by myself and take pictures. But since I've grown as a human being and learned and started to fully love myself, going out to take pictures isn't scary anymore. I love it. Yeah, sometimes I'll ask a friend to tag along with me for the companionship and so I have someone to talk to, but for the most part I like going places by myself, and just hanging out with my camera.

 When it comes to what I like to take pictures of, the list is long. I love taking pictures through windows looking out over something. I love when things are centered and the light is dim giving everything a nostalgic feel. I love taking pictures of myself. I don't always have the energy or motivation to go outside so I become the photographer and the subject. I love taking pictures of myself because I don't have to worry about it being awkward or the subject/model becoming uncomfortable. I am allowed complete and total control. I love taking pictures of skin, mine and other peoples. I love seeing the lines and how the pigment of someones face changes in different spots. I love being able to see tiny little blemishes and peach fuzz. Over this past summer(summer 2014) I started(and have yet to finish) a photo project where I take close up pictures of peoples faces. I started with myself one day when I was bored after school and the results were, in my opinion, incredible. I then set out to find friends who were willing the shed their makeup and let me basically stare at them through a viewfinder. Luckily, they let me and one of my favorite projects was born.

Well this post seemed to get away from a bit but I stand by the whole thing. I feel so incredibly inspired by the Humans of New York book and I can't wait to go take pictures of everything I see once again.

*Below I'm going to add some pictures from the summer project but all pictures I post can be found HERE*

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Hello humans!!!! I started Winter Term(my second term of college!) last Monday and I just wanted to give  a lil update. I'm taking 2 classes at actual school and 1 online. I'm taking Business 101, Critical Thinking and Media, and Music 101. Business 101 is good, it's just a lot of lectures and notes but I do find it very interesting. Critical Thinking and Media is one of the most interesting classes I've ever taken. We basically talk about different aspects of media and question and criticize it. I'm definitely not the best critical thinker but it's fun. It's going to be hard but exciting. Music 101, I know for a fact is going to be the real struggle. I never really learned about the notes and scales and all that when I was younger, and boy is it hard. But I feel myself learning and gaining an actual understand of music which is super cool and makes me feel super excited for what's to come. I hope everyone is having a less than painful transition back into to school and I hope you all have a wonderful day/morning/evening/night!!!

Happy New Year!!!!!!!! I hope everyone had a wonderful and safe new year and got to ring it in with their favorite humans. I thought I would let you all in on my resolutions/goals for this year. But before I do that I want to reflect on 2014. 

2014 was a great year, I didn't spend a lot of the year being sad and I got to do cool things and go to some cool places. I graduated high school in June which was a huge accomplishment, went to New York City, met one of my best friends of 3 years Isabella, went to Germany and saw where my grandma was born and grew up, also went to Berlin and saw the Berlin Wall and got to go to so many museums, started college, ended my first term with straight A's, started to learn to drive, began to finally love myself, started to become informed on important subjects, and bettered friendships with the important people in my life. 2014 was great and I can't believe how much I learned and grew.

But now for for my 2015 goals;

- learn to drive and get my license(for real this time)

- learn more about makeup

- continue to educate myself about whats going on around the world

- take more pictures

- continue to stay confident and love myself endlessly

- don't let my anxieties and fears control me

 - continue to love myself apologetically

I hope you all have a wonderful day/morning/evening/night!!!